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03 December 2011 @ 05:18 pm
As Jinki wakes up his faded vision begins to go back to normal. He realizes he is not home, but in what looks like someone elses place rather than a hospital or something.

He sits up on the couch. "Sss ah!" he yelps. His ribs are hurting. He lifts up his shirt and besides the very chiseled 6-pack is a big purplish, blackish bruise right on his left side of his ribs. He tries to touch it just a bit, "Ahhh!" he yelps again. His puts his shirt down slowly and looks around for a moment. This is definitely not my house, he thinks to himself.

The place he was in was much bigger and nicer than his own. Everything seemed to sparkle. There were all types of electronics and artwork everywhere. The furniture was so white, it made even the clouds in the sky seem like it needed a good cleaning.

"Where am I?" Jinki questions out loud.

He looks down to the coffee table next to the couch he's laying on. There was a note, it said:

Hello, are you up now? I hope you feel better. Please make yourself comfortable, don't move around too much. There should be some aspirin right in front of you. Please take it with the glass of water. You'll feel better. I left some food for you in the dining. Please eat it all! I will be back soon. Don't worry.


Aspirin....Jinki doesn't know really know much about medicine, but he knows that this type of medicine is suppose to take pain away. He sees two pills and a glass of water by the note. He stares at it for about a minute debating whether or not he should take it. Afterall, he is in some strangers place.

He lifts up his shirt again and looks down at the bruise across his ribs. He decides to take the aspirin. He reaches over for it and the little movement he made gave him pain. When he finishes swallowing the pills he slowly gets up and walks around the place for a bit, being amazed by every little thing he sees.

He soon finds a restroom, which he's been wanting to use since he had awaken. The mirror in the bathroom catches his attention. He gets a glimpse of his face. His right cheek is swollen red and there is a mark on his lip where it was busted. He touches his face lightly and flinches a little because of the pain on his cheek. he stares at his reflection thinking, this is what I look like. He's seen himself in reflections before but nothing like this. Not this clearly.

Suddenly he starts seeing himself when he was younger...


Jinki was outside playing with all of the animals. He really loved the animals that his grandparents had. They were the only ones that he actually felt comfortable around. Even when it was time for him to go inside he would sneak and go play with them some more just for a little while, they were his only friends.

He especailly liked the cow that was there. There was only one cow so he felt the cow was lonely and would spend most of his time with him. His grandfather hated when he was outside near the animals. He thought that with Jinki around them, they get sick or somehow die. He also thought Jinki would let some of the animals go. But Jinki never thought of that.

One day, it was getting dark and Jinki was suppose to go inside for dinner. But he wanted to stay out with the cow for a little longer, just a little bit. His grandmother had called him inside to come and eat and Jinki told her he'd be there in a few minutes.

Just a minute later his grandfather storms outside into the barn and goes straight up to Jinki and back hands him right in the face. Jinki had fell to the ground and started tearing up. He grabbed his face tightly and looked at his grandfather angry.

"You got something to say boy?" he said to Jinki.

Jinki looked away and said, "No..."

"Then get your ass in the house like your grandmother said! Now I told you I don't like you hanging around these animals! If I catch you out here again you'll be living with them. Better yet, you'll become their dinner!" Jinki's grandfather threatened him.

As his grandfather stormed back into the house Jinki slowly stood up. He looked at the cow once more and said "I'm sorry." and walked towards the house.

He ran inside and he went straight upstairs to the bathroom to go and clean his face off so his grandmother wouldn't see.

He rans the water in the bathroom sink and took a towel and soaked it with cold water. He pressed the wet cold towel against his lip lightly and wiped all of the blood off. Then he took the same towel and pressed it against his cheek. It was painful. As he stood there he looked at himself in the mirror. He slowly took the towel off his cheek and stared at himself straight in the eye.

He thought about the way his grandfather treated him and wandered if things would get better. All he could do was hope...


After thinking about the past Jinki no longer wants to look at himself in the mirror. He quickly leaves the bathroom and heads into the dining room. There he sees a spot set up with food for him to eat. He sits down and looks at everything. He doesn't think much of it and hurries and eats it quickly. The food was delicious. He hasn't had a real meal in he doesn't even know how long.

When he finished eating all of the food he takes everything into the kitchen and decides to clean all of his dishes. He figured, since this stranger has gone through so much to help him he mine as do something in return, even if its only this little.

He soon felt tired again and decides to go back to the couch to lay down. Quickly falling asleep he starts having a dream. His dream is about a beautiful women in white. She was the most beautiful person he had ever seen in his life. He's not sure why he's dreaming of her.

Soon after he hears a noise in the kitchen and he instantly wakes up. He slowly gets up and makes his way into the kitchen. As he enters, he sees a person but can't make out who it is. He walks a little closer, slowly. From behind she looks like a woman, but still hasn't seen her face. Still walking slowly around the kitchen island he sees her. It's the women he had dreamed of, right in front of his eyes. He's in shock and can't move anymore.

She turns around with a tray in her hand, and not knowing he was standing there she gets a shock and drops everything. This snaps him back to reailty.

"Omo!" she says. "You scared me!" she laughs.

As she bends down to pick up the things she's dropped Jinki quickly tries to help her. Not paying attention, Jinki stares at her with amazement. She IS the most beautiful women he's ever seen. He can't help himself. She then looks up at him. With little hesitation he quickly looks away as if he wasn't looking at her at all.

But she knows he was staring. She smiles at him. They both stand up and she sets the tray on the counter. He stares at her more.

Then asks, "Are you the one who wrote me the note?"

"Mhm" replies.

Then he asks, "So you are the one who brought me here?"

"Yes." She says. "Hi, I'm Eun Jung. Ham Eun Jung." She puts out her hand to give him a handshake. "What's your name?"

"Lee Jin Ki." he replies, and grabs her hand. Instantly he gets tingles up his spine. Jinki is nervous. He's never been this nervous in his entire life. He's not sure how to handle this feeling either.

They both stand there with each others hands in the other staring in an awkward silence. She lets go.

"I was going to bring you fresh fruit to eat but as you can see I dropped it all." she laughs.

"Oh, I'm sorry." He apologizes. "I shouldn't have snuck up on you like that."

"No thats okay." she says.

They both stand there awkwardly.

"Well," Eun Jung breaking the silence. "Would you like anything to drink? I'm sure you're thirsty."

"No thank you, I'm fine." Jinki replies.

"Come on, she says, no need to be modest. I'll get you something and you go and sit down." she tells him.

Eunjung brings out a tray with hot tea on it. She sets a cup down for Jinki and fills it up with tea. Then she does the same for herself. She sits down in the chair next to the couch and takes a sip of her hot drink. Jinki stares at her once again. As she sets her cup down she ask Jinki, "So how old are you?"

"Ahm, 22." Jinki says stiffly.

"Ahh, so you are older than me." Eunjung claims as she shakes her head in approval.

"Hmm, really? How old are you?" Jinki asks her.

"I'm only 20. My birthday was a few weeks ago." She replies.

"I see." Jinki says and turns his head away from her.

There was an awkward silence.

"Um, wh-why did you help me and bring me here?" He asks Eunjung.

"Well," she begins. "When I saw thsoe boys messing with you, I couldn't just leave it alone. Would you have rather they beat you until you couldn't walk?"

"No, but...you could have gotten hurt or something trying to help me. What if they went after you?" Jinki tries to tell her.

"No worries. I have a black belt in Taekwondo and I know Judo, I've also taken up some kick-boxing. I can protect myself." Eunjung tells him.

"But still..." Jinki says in concern. He continues, "Why did you bring me here? You don't know who I am. I could be like one of them."

"Well are you?" She asks.

"No, but-" He tries to say before she cut him off.

"Well, then it's settled. Besides, you don't look like you could hurt a fly." Eunjung says.

"That still doesn't answer why you brought me here to your home." he says. "What if your parents come home and see me here? Won't they be worried?" He asked.

"I don't live with my parents." Eunjung replies. "They live in America right now."

"Oh, but you still-"

Eunjung then cuts Jinki off again. "Look, you were passed out. I tried to ask you where you lived but you couldn't hear me. You actually kind of scared me." She tells Jinki

He sits there quietly thinking for a moment.

"You could have taken me to the hospital though." He says.

"I wanted to at first, but its too far away and if I had called an ambulance they would have taken too long to arrive. Who knows what state you'd be in by the time they had gotten here. Plus, my place was literally right there, my first instinct was to get you in a warm place and try to fix you up. So I just brought you here without thinking." Eunjung explains to Jinki. "Besides, my father is a doctor, so I just called him up and asked him what to do. He told me everything and that it sounded like you'd be fine."

They both sit there in silence, awkwardly.

"Can't you just thank me or something? Instead of scolding me for bringing you to a safe place?" She asks him.

"Oh, well....thank you very much for helping me." Jinki replied.

"It's okay." She said with a smile. "I'm sure anyone else would have done the same."

"No...I don't think they would have." He says.

"Why don't you think so?" Eunjung asks confused.

"It's nothing." He replied.

Another awkward moment of silence passes.

Eunjung bites her lips a bit and looks down at her fingers and fidgets.

"Oh!" She says loudly. "Are you hungry? I can make us some food." She tells Jinki.

"Oh, no no no." Jinki replies. "I should go home now. You've done enough. I am fine, thank you."

He stands up quickly and bows to her so he can take his leave. He hurries to the door.

"Wel-well wait!" Eunjung quickly says. "Let me walk you home." She offers.

"No, no thank you. I can manage. You don't need to do that. you should stay here and rest." Jinki tells her.

"No it's no problem. I want to. I need the fresh air anyways." She tries to convince him.

Jinki feels kind of uncomfortable with her offer. However, he has this feeling that no matter how many times he says it, she won't take no for an answer. So he agrees.

"Okay then." He says in an uncomfortable tone of voice.

She quickly grabs her coat in excitment and Jinki just stares. Her smile is so beautiful he thought. She glowed so brightly. He couldn't handle it and had to force himself to look away, he knew this would probably be the last time he saw her so he didn't want to get used to it.

As they set off to Jinki's home, the sun was very bright. He stopped at one point and looked toward sthe sky. Eunjung looked at Jinki and saw hurt in his eyes. He looked so says, even with a smile on his face. It looked like he used his smiles to cover up so many scars. She wanted to do something to help.

"Come on." She says to Jinki as she grabs his arm and starts walking faster.

"Wait, where are we going?" Jinki asks her as he's being pulled.

"Just come on!" Eunjung replies and starts running.

Eunjung takes Jinki to an arcade close by to play videos games. She goes to find her favoirte game, which is Pacman. As she starts playing with excitement. Jinki keeps his eye fixed on the game. He's never played on of these before, she he's amazed at what he sees. He's always wondered what it was like to play when he would see others laughing and having a good time around them; but he never got to try for himself.

"Here, you try." Eunjung says to him.

"I don't know how, I've never played before." Jinki tells her.

"Here, just try it, it's easy. I'll show you." She insists.

She shows him all of the buttons and rules ot the game.

"See that yellow thing right there?" She asks him.

"Yes." He says.

"Well thats you. And all the little dots there you have to eat fast before one of those ugly looking colorful things come and eat you." She explains to him. "The big dots over in the corners are kind of like life savers. Once you eat those, you can go and eat the ugly gumdrop thingys. They try to run away from you, but if you're fast, you can eat a couple of them before they turn back to normal. You have to be quick in this game."

Jinki tries it out. He died instantly in the first few times, but after a while, he starts getting the hang of it. Eunjung and Jinki takes turns at the game for over an hour, smiling and laughing together.

After they finish, the sun starts setting and they begin walking again. As they continue, they approach a Tteokbokki stand. Jinki stops and looks at it. Eunjung notices him and stares at him, wondering what he's doing. She then looks at the Tteokbokki also. Jinki is remincsing about the last time he ate Tteokbokki. It was with his dad not too long before he died. He hasn't had any since.

Eunjung, watching Jinki, has an idea. She goes up to the Tteokbokki ajumma to buy some for them to eat. "Ajummoni, two please." She asks the ajumma.

The Ajumma prepares two small plates of Tteokbeokki and hands her two toothpicks to eat with. Eunjung brings it over to Jinki and tries to hand him one. Jinki looks down and then looks at Eunjung confused.

"Here, eat it." she says.

Hesitant, he takes the plate without saying a word. He didn't even realize she had went and got any. she smiles and looks at him then starts stuffing her face. She makes a cute little face when she eats, like a child. He smiles at her and starts eating the Tteokbokki too. The taste brought him back to his early childhood. The feeling made him warm inside, this makes him happy once again.

They start walking again after they finish. By the time they reach the alley where Jinki resides its dark. Eunjung, looking around, begings to have a worried look on her face. Jinki catches it.

"Don't worry." He says with a grin. "This is where I live."

"Here?" She says with a suprised look.

"Mhm." He nods.

The worried look kind of fades once they reach the door.

"Well." He says. Thank you for yesterday, and today. I haven't laughed like that in years."

He opens the door and begins to enter to hurry away from any awkwardness that would happen. Plus, he wants to hurry and forget about her because he knows he will never see her again. As this happens, Eunjung suddenly grabs his arm to stop him. Jinki stops and becomes very stiff. His eyes widen.

"could...could I come in please, to use your bathroom. I really have to go." Eunjung says.

A sigh of relief flows through Jinki's body.

"Umm, I'm not sure if that's such a good idea. The place I live in isn't as nice and clean as yours." He tries to tell her.

"It doesn't matter. Please, I really have to go." Eunjung says.

Jinki becomes hesitant...."Umm, o-okay I guess. Don't say I didn't warn you."

As they walk up the stairs and into his home Eunjung looks around for a bit. What Jinki said was right, it was nothing like her place, or anyone else at that.

"Do you live here by yourself?" She asks as she slowly looks around.

"Yes." Jinki replied.

"Where is your family then?" She ask asked.

"Um....I don't have family." Jinki told her.

She looks at him without saying anything for a moment.

"I'm sorry." she said to him.

"Its okay, I'm used to having no one around. It's not so bad." Jinki tells her.

He shows her to the restroom. It's not like hers, there isn't even a mirror or a shower of some sort. As she stands there in the bathroom, she doesn't evne have to go anymore. But she just stood there anyways. She tries to turn on the water faucet in the sink but it doesn't work. She wonders how he even uses the bathroom without water running. Out of curiousity, she flushes the toliet to see if it works. It does. So she assumes that the faucet must be broken.

She looks at the bucket sitting next to the sink filled with water. This must be how he washes, she thinks to herself. Eunjung turns around and leans against the sink. She looks up to the ceiling and sees all types of water damage and mold. She instantly starts tearing up. Soon the tears start falling down her face.

Why does a person have to live like this? She question herself. Especially a good person like Jinki-ssi.

"Are you okay in there?" Jinki says as he knocks lightly.

"Um yes." Eunjung exclaims, as she quickly wipes the tears off her face. "Be out in a minute!" She tells him.

She thinks to herself for a moment. No, this can't be like this, it has to change. She opens the door and sees jinki standing in the middle of the room. She smiles at him and begins walking towards him. He smiles back.

"Jinki-ssi." She says

"Yes?" He replied.

"Do you like living her by yourself?" She asked him.

"Um, I guess I'm kind of used to it. It's alright here." He tells her.

She looks around and circles a bit. She walks towards his table and grabs the cup he usually drinks out of. She stares at it for a few seconds, then puts it down. She turns around to Jinki slowly.

"Would you like to come and live at my place?" She bluntly asks.

"What?!" Jinki asks, not sure if he heard her right.

She replies, "Come....live with me Jinki-ssi....."
03 December 2011 @ 05:14 pm

"Here you are sweetheart." says Jinki's grandmother.

She sets a pot of gabli tang on the dining room table.

"Take a seat." she says to Jinki.

Jinki, excited about the gabli tang hurries to his seat. He can't wait to dig in.

Jinki's grandmother takes a couple of scoops of the soup and puts it in his bowl. She then pushes some side dishes closer to him telling him to eat those too.

He takes a bite of soup and instantly falls in love with it.

"Mmmm, neomu mashisseoyo (it's very delicisou)." he says with joy.

"Really? Ahh then eat more, eat more." His grandmother says as she puts more soup into his bowl."

After dinner Jinki's grandmother took him upstairs to his new room. She told him to look around and to get comfy.

"Your grandfather will be home soon, so why don't you go a head and start unpacking. Once he gets here we'll have dessert." she tells him.

She closes his door and Jinki kind of looks up and around. He walks slowly exploring all of the things that were in his new room.

There wasn't much for a child's room. Mostly books, not toys. The walls were pretty bland. The bed was perfectly made, and the desk was empty. The room was pretty small actually. At least smaller than his previous room.

It was around 7 o'clock when Jinki finished unpacking. He was pretty tired. He wasn't necessarily uncomfortable with the situation but he wasn't too fond of it. He figured it was better than the foster home.

He sat down on his bed and laid back staring at the ceiling. He started thinking about how it would be to live with his grandparents. Worrying just a little but then determining that everything would probably be okay.

He then started thinking of his parents. The last thing he remembers is that day at the park. Everything else is quite a blur. It's been 6 months since he lost them. He tries hard recall what had happened but he starts to get headache every time he thinks about it. So he just gives up for now.

After about a half of hour of laying there Jinki hears someone coming up the stairs. His door busts open, it's his grandfather.

Jinki sits up quickly and tries to get off the bed to greet his grandfather but before he can...

"Don't you move!" says his grandfather.

Jinki just sits there as still as a statue. His grandfather closes his door and walks slowly towards him.

He stares at him, making Jinki feel more uncomfortable than ever.

"Don't you think for a second that just because your precious mommy and daddy are dead that I'll show you any sympathy." said his grandfather with a sort of ridged facial expression.

"I don't like the idea of a having a son of a slut and a big nosed know-it-all in my house." he continued.

"And this isn't a free ride where you get to eat all day long and use up all the hot water without doing any work around here. You better believe that you will be working for your stay. And i don't tolerate disobedience and attitude so you better get yourself checked on that." he exclaimed as he got closer to Jinki.

"And don't you ever, ever go crying to your grandmother, cause she can't help you."

He put his index finger right into Jinki's forehead and pushed him down on the bed. Then he began walking back towards the door....but before he left he stopped and turned around.

"I'll be watching you." he said in a low sort of whispered voice.

He left the room and left Jinki with a frightened look on his face. Jinki thought to himself, mom, dad, please help me.....


Down the dark alley is a door, this is where Jinki lives. It's an old abandoned building that no one ever bothers to care about. No one ever comes back here.

When you walk into his place its not your usual comfy suburb or modern home. The place isn't very safe to live in. There are nails sticking out of the floors and walls. There are leaks from the roof. The place isn't very clean looking either.

Theres a bed, a bathroom, and a few other items Jinki has collected over the years; including a photo of his parents. Thats all he feels he needs. This may not be home sweet home, but it is home.

Jinki falls asleep after finishing his first roll of kimbap. He doesn't eat much. He's learned that he doesn't need much to satisfy his hunger, this way, he'll save more food. In the middle of the night Jinki starts tossing and turning. He has flashes of that day at the park with his parents.

He sees his mother and father together. He also sees a man, running, but he can't make out who he is or what he was doing. Then, he sees his kite in the air, not by him though, as if he let go and it was out on his own, and he's screaming towards his parents....

Jinki instantly wakes up in a pool of sweat. He starts breathing heavily; trying to calm himself down he sits up and grabs his chest. His heart is beating rapidly. With his right hand still grabbing his chest, he looks down to his left and closes his eyes. Taking slow, deep breaths. His heart finally starts to calm down. He lets go of his chest. With his eyes still closed he puts his head back, he slowly runs his hands through the front of his hair to the back of head. For a moment, he just sits there.

He opens his eyes and realizes its morning. "Hmp, morning already?" he says out loud.

He gets up and grabs a bucket he keeps next to his bed and goes downstairs and outside of the place he lives. Out there in the alley there is a faucet you're supposed hook up a water hose to. He had discovered that the water was still running a while back and has been using it every since. This is how he manages to stay hydrated along with staying clean.

While he waits for the bucket to fill up he looks out to the end of the alley where he can see people walking and cars passing threw. He doesn't really think much of it. He learns to accept his life for what it is and tries his best not to ever become envious of anyone else's. He does this so he can obtain and manage his life without regret or suffering. He knows he is not like other people in the world but he is still happy to be breathing each day and that's all that matters.

The water starts overflowing the bucket. He snaps back to reality. After returning to his room he sets the bucket down on his table and grabs the cup that sitting on it. He fills it up with water and gulps it down. Then he takes the bucket into the small bathroom that's next to his room and tosses water on his face and saves the rest of the water for later.

He's a bit hungry so he goes and eats half a roll of kimbap that the store ajumma had given him. He then decides to take off and wander around a bit, mostly to get some fresh air. He hates sitting in that room of his, it gets pretty stuffy.

He starts walking down the street and does what he does everyday, and that's enjoying the air he's breathing. About an hour of walking Jinki stops and sits at a bus stop for a bit just to take a small break. There are a lot of people waiting for the bus to arrive. One of them, is a mother and a daughter that looks about 5 years of age. As Jinki sits there, the young girl who is standing next to her mothering is holding her mothers hands in one hand and a lollipop in the other. She notices him. then turns around and stares.

After Jinki realizes that the young girl is looking at him he stares back and smiles. She then smiles back at him. As the bus begins to arrive at the stop people start crowding around  to get onto the bus before others. The girl and her mother disappear in the crowd. After a few seconds, people are still entering the bus. He then notices the young girl looking out of one of the windows still smiling at him. She puts her hand outside of the window and signals him to come over. Jinki walks over to the girl and she says "Here, this will make you happy for the rest of the day." and hands him the lollipop. The bus then sets off.

His smile sort of fades while he is staring at the lollipop. He can't even remember the last time he's ever received anything from anyone. His eyes almost tear up. He slowly puts the lollipop in his mouth then smiles again. This little girl has made his day.

A few hours later Jinki is still wandering around and notices that the sun is beginning to set. So he heads off to his home. While he's walking, he still has a huge grin on his face and the lollipop in his mouth. A group of teenage boys who seem bored notices him and notices that he is what they call a bum. Instantly they have an urge to mess with him.

They follow him for a little bit until no one is around. One of them step in front of him. Jinki stops and says "Excuse me" and tries to walk around, but once he takes a step to the left, the boy also takes a step to the left. So Jinki tries going to his right, but the boy again steps to the right with Jinki. He stops and takes the lollipop out of his mouth. behind him he hears the snickering of two other boys and he turns around. He instantly gets a bad feeling about this.

One of the boys start pushing him against the building he's next to. Jinki gets this worried look among his face. Jinki may be a strong person but because of his cold past when it comes to physical things he immediately becomes the child he once was back then. He doesn't know how to protect himself.

"Where you headed?" one of the boys ask in an smirky tone of voice.

"I'm-I'm going home." Jinki hesitated.

"Home?" he says. "You don't look like someone who has a 'home'. Where do you live? In a cardboard box?" He questions. All of the boys start laughing.

"Please." Jinki begged. "Just let me go, I didn't do anything wrong."

"What made you think you did something wrong?" The boy looks at the other two. "Did you say something?" he asks one of them. The other boy shakes his head no. He looks to the second boy and asks, "How about you?" "Nope." He replied. "It doesn't look like anyone here said you did anything wrong." the boy said to Jinki.

"Then please, let me go." Jinki pleaded.

"Mmmm, no, I don't think so. Not until we have a little fun." the boy replied.

He looks down at Jinki's hand and sees the lollipop. "Awww, look you guys, he's sucking on a lollipop." They all laugh. "Does it taste good?" He asked Jinki.

Jinki says nothing.

"I SAID, DOES IT TASTE GOOD?" The boy asked and he grabbed Jinki's collar of his shirt.

"Ye-Yes" Jinki replied nervously.

"Then why not share. You know, sharing is caring!" exclaimed the boy.

Jinki turns a little, basically denying his request.

"Oh so your a stingy fella huh? Well I guess being a bum kind of makes you that way." he tells Jinki. He tries to grab the lollipop out of Jinki's hand but Jinki moves his hand out of the way quickly. The boy looks Jinki in the face, angry.

"I said SHARING IS CARING!" The boy said angrily.

Jinki once again moved his hand out of the way so the boy couldn't take the one thing that has made his life just a bit more joyful.

This made the boy furious. He punched Jinki in the stomach which led Jinki to fall to his knees. Jinki, grabbing his stomach starts coughing and spitting out blood. The boy stomps at Jinki's rib cage and this leads Jinki to fall straight to the ground, dropping the lollipop. Jinki, squirming around trying to get up gets kicked in the face by one of the other boys.

With his face to the ground he looked at the lollipop, he tries to crawl over to it to grab it but the boy notices Jinki and walks over to it. He looks at it. Then he looks at jinki, he stomps on it.

The lollipop is crushed into little pieces.

Jinki starts crying out, "ANDWAEEEEE!" One of the other boys kick him in the face again and Jinki flips over to his back and stares at the sky. Everything is blurry and fading in and out but he sees one star, just one bright star, which gives him hope.

Right after, he hears a voice. "YAH! Neo MEOHAE!?!" the person screams out. The boys run away quickly leaving Jinki on the ground.

The person hurries over to Jinki and asks him if he's okay. He sees a female in all white, with beautiful light brown hair and big, round brown eyes. She grabs his head and lifts it up, "Are you okay?" she repeats herself. Jinki can barely hear or see her. Everything is becoming more blurry and faded.

Soon, Jinki passes out completely....

03 December 2011 @ 05:13 pm

As people walk by Jinki as if he doesn't exist. he just continues to stare off into the world wondering, what if that was me? Or what if I had a place to be?

He mainly tries not thinks of what ifs....

After staring bluntly towards the world for a few moments, he realizes that the sun is starting to go down and he hasn't eaten anything all day.

So Jinki continues to head off to look for money that people have dropped along the streets.

He always looks in phone booths, under arcade games, little gum ball machines, and other places he can find. However, his most favorite and most successful place to look is always under vending machines.

There is always a few coins that have been dropped around there. It always the coins that fall under the machines that people don't even bother to try and grab because they know they can't. but Jinki can.

By the time he's done looking in all of his favorite spots, Jinki counts up the money he has collected and decides what he should eat that day.

"Today, I think I'll have Kimbap" Jinki says aloud with the cutest smile on his face. As if he's a five year old that has just been told that he's getting ice cream.

usually Jinki eats Kimbap, if not, its either a cup of ramen or some kind of bbang (bread).

So with Jinki's mind made up, he goes to a small little convenience store around the corner from where he began.

"Ajummoni, one Kimbap please." He asks the Ajumma at the counter.

She smiles at him. "So it's Kimbap today, no ramen? I just got your favorite back in stock" she exclaims.

"Really?!" He's say excitedly.

"Yes sir." She replies.

Jinki looks up to the ceiling thinking whether or not he should change his mind about the Kimbap...

"Mmm I think I'll just stick to you're delicious Kimbap today. I will get the ramen next time." he decides.

She laughs, "Okay then."

As the Ajumma turns around to get his Kimbap. Jinki kind of does a little spin looking around closely at all the things to buy in the shop.

Although his smile starts to fade a small bit, he stops and takes a deep breath, telling himself that he doesn't need all of these things to survive.

While Jinki is lost in thought, the Ajumma turns around with the Kimbap and stares at Jinki. She gives him a look of worry.

Even though he isn't her child, she knows that he is alone in this world. But she commends him for sticking it out for so long.

She really likes Jinki, she believe that he is a breath of fresh air and every time he comes into her store, he just makes her day.

Sometimes, she'll even sneak in a few more rolls of Kimbap or something sweet for him to eat later on....since its her store anyhow.

However, her husband dislikes Jinki. He thinks he's a beggar and hates when he enters the store. He never has a reason to kick him out so he just stands there giving him a hardcore look just waiting for that reason.

If he catches his wife adding more things to Jinki's bag he'll snatch it away from her and says, "we don't give out food to beggars."

Even right in front of Jinki he'll do it, without a care.

But Jinki doesn't mind, he just smiles and says his goodbyes.

"Here you are sweetheart." says the Ajumma.

Jinki turns around and grabs the bag.

"I snuck in a few extra rolls of kimbap." she tells him.

"Ajummoni, you don't have to do that." Jinki tries to tell her.

"No no no, its fine. You're the only one who actually appreciates my hard work put into these things, you deserve them. Now you go home right away. As a matter of fact, take one out right now and eat it on your way, I don't need you passing out in front of my store." she says.

Jinki smiles, "Okay, I will. You have a good night. I will see you soon. And thanks again for the delicious Kimbap."

Jinki heads out of the store. On his way out the Ajumma's husband walks in, giving Jinki one of those dirty looks again.

As Jinki is about to start off his short journey home he hears the Ajusshi yelling at his wife inside the store.

"You gave him free food again didn't you!!" he yells.

"Why does it matter, I'm the one making it! It's not like you eat anything I make anymore anyways!" she replies back to him with her voice raise.

"I don't like that kid bum in my store!" he says.

"Your store! This is MY store. I put all of my money into this and everything else. All you do is come in here and sit on your ass everyday! You could at least do something around here before you start claiming this as YOUR store!" she comes back at him.

Jinki doesn't like when people argue or fight, so it doesn't take him long before he decides to continue his way on home.

As Jinki approaches a dark alley he always thinks about his life turned out, and if he had changed it what would be so different about it.


"Oh my grandson, come over here and give your halmoni a big hug"

Jinki walks slowly towards his grandmother and gives her an awkward hug.

He never spent much time with his grandparents. They were his mothers parents, but never were to fond of his father so they would only see each other a few times a year.

"Now." his grandmother says, "How about I go in the kitchen and whip you up something good to eat, how does that sound? Hm?"

"Okay." Jinki replies.

"Whats your most favorite food to eat?" his grandmother asked.

"Mmmm Galbi Tang." he says with a little more enthusiasm.

"Okay, that sounds good. I think I can manage that." she says.

Jinki has a little more excitement now that his grandmother will be making his favorite food.

"You wait here and I'll go into the kitchen and whip you up some Galbi Tang. But you have to promise to behave okay." she tells him.

"Okay, I will halmoni." he says.

"Now thats my good boy. be right back."

As Jinki's grandmother leaves the room to make him food, Jinki decides to walk around a bit and familiarize himself with the surroundings, since this is where he'll be living from now on anyhow....

03 December 2011 @ 05:10 pm

"Come on Dad!" yells Jinki.

The sound of laughter surrounds the family on this happy day.

Jinki's mom and dad both finally have a day off and the three decide to have a picnic in the park.

Jinki's dad brought a kite so he could teach him how to fly it.

His mom made all kinds of delicious desserts and foods for them to eat.

They find a perfect spot right next to a beautiful cherry blossom tree where the sun hits just right but the shade covers them just enough.

Jinki's mother places a blue and white plaid blanket down on the soft green grass, she then sets out all of the dishes.

However, jinki grabs the kite right out of his fathers hands and goes straight for flying it.

It's cool spring day. The flowers are blooming everywhere and the fresh smell is amazing.

the sky is bluer than every and the sun is brighter than usual. The clouds are as puffy as marshmallows.

Today is a good day Jinki thinks to himself.

Jinki's dad comes quickly, telling Jinki to wait up for him.

Jinki is so excited, he's never flown a Kite before and he's been waiting for his dad to have time to show him how to.

As he unravels the reel to get the bridle to become longer, he starts running away from it, holding it tightly waiting for it to start flying in the sky, but it doesn't even budge.

Jinki's dad yells, "You have to flow with the wind son. You can't just start taking off and expect it to follow. You have to go with what the wind tells you"

He catches up to him.

"Here, like this." Jinki's dad takes the kite away from him and rolls up the string a little more, he then stands there, with his eyes closed and his head up high quietly, without moving, waiting for a sign or something.

As Jinki's stares at his dad, he smiles. He thinks  my dad is so handsome, one day, I wish to look just like him.

His dad takes a deep breath and exhales slowly, he opens his eyes and smiles. He looks at Jinki, "Now watch closely."

Jinki, concentrated strictly on what his dad is doing watches.

As his dad unravels some of the bridle, he tosses the kite into the air and runs away from it. The kite immediately begins to fly.

The look of amazement covers Jinki's face as the kite flows with clouds in the sky.

Jinki's dad stops running and stands there with the kite in his hand he reels in some of the bridle as if it were a fishing pole, "Jinki, come over here for a second!"

Jinki quickly runs to his dad. His father gives him the kite and tells him to hold it tightly.

They both stand there in silence, acknowledging the beautiful site, taking in the fresh air.

A few moments later...

"You know kiddo, days like these are rare. That's why we should cherish every moment." Jinki's dad says.

He begins to look back at his wife, "I used to wonder why people never take the time to appreciate the things that they have and things that are given to them."

He bends down on one knee, grabs Jinki by the shoulders and looks and looks him dead in the eye, "But I cherish and appreciate every moment with you and your mother that I have. I couldn't ever image being without either of you. I love the both of you more than anything else. I know you're only 8, but I hope you know that son. I am a truly happy man."

"Appa.", Jinki says. "Do you think that all of these people in the world are happy like us?"

"Jinki." His dad begins, "happiness is something that can come and go within in an instant. Only you can control the happiness that you obtain, this way, whether it be me or a friend or anyone else, deep down inside, if they upset you or not, you can control the happiness that overflows the pain."

Jinki takes a moment to think about what his dad has said...

"Son.", He continues. "I want you to remember this; We don't see things as they are, we see them as what we are. To live is the most rarest thing in the world, most people exist, and that's all. So wondering if someone else is happy isn't important, it's sharing that happiness that you have, that way, you'll never have to wonder. Just a smile can show others that you are okay. Once you give a smile, that smile is received by another; it's contagious."

Jinki thought long and hard over this.

He began to look back out at the sky and soaked in all of the things his dad told him.

He wondered if what his dad said was true; about smiling being contagious.

So he looked over to his mother whom was still sitting under the tree, watching the two, smiling at them. He began to smile. Then he looked at his dad who looked down at him, and they were both smiling.

He thought, I wish everyday was a day like this, and I wish everyone all the happiness in the world....

----14 YEARS LATER----

The streets of Seoul are filled with people with a purpose. Men and women, trying to reach their destinations. Whether it be work or going to meet up with an old friend or a date with they're wife, they all have places to be.

Teenage girls walking in groups of 2 or 3 linking arms or giggling into they're cell phones about the latest gossip on a celeb.

Teenage boys walking around with their backpacks or riding their skateboards looking for something to do.

The air isn't so great, pollution surrounds the city but not as bad as you would imagine. It's manageable. The streets aren't too bad either. Except the traffic, god that traffic, its rush hour and cars are flowing at 15 miles per hour. Many are late for where they need to be.

Honking they're horns every 10 seconds, screaming and yelling at each other. The smart ones are taking the subway, although it may get crowded and if you miss your train, you're basically screwed; however, its a much faster route than sitting in this chili fall weather waiting to move a few inches every 5 minutes.

Seoul is everything you'd image in a normal city life. You never get any silence and at night, the streets are filled with so many bright lights you can barely get a good look at the stars.

Everyone just lives their lives day to day in Seoul, even Jinki.

Lee Jinki, not many know his name. Most know him as that bum or beggar sitting on the street with no ambitions. He's homeless, with one goal, to survive. Life has been hard every since that day. The last day he spent with his parents 14 years ago. Everything changed in a blink of an eye.

jinki doesn't ask anyone for anything, although he may seem as if he's a beggar or a bum, it's not the life he originally wanted, but dealt with as he took a turn on a different, longer road.

The looks people give him passing by every single day doesn't affect him as much as it used to. He's used to it. He has a way to obtain food, he has a place to sleep, and he has clothes on his body. That's all he needs.

He doesn't have a job, an education, or anything that could ever give him a chance for a change; he knows this. However, he looks into the sky everyday and smiles. Because he knows that it doesn't matter what he looks like, where he sleeps or how much money he has. He is the only one that can control his happiness, not the people walking by with the dirty looks........

03 December 2011 @ 05:04 pm
Title: Trying To Survive
Author: BarbieYeoja
Genre: Drama, Romance
Rating: R
Length: Chapters
Pairing: Lee Jinki (Onew), Ham Eun Jung, Moon Chae Won
Summary: Lee Jinki is a young man struggling to survive. He has had a hard life, losing his parents at the age of 8, later being abused by his grandfather and soon the unthinkable happens. Lies are told and people have been searching for him for years. 14 years later he is on the streets of Seoul living his life out day by day, not knowing wether he will eat today or not. He soon meets a young women searching for herself and who is considerate, caring and open to others. She helps Jinki with his past, present, and his future. Giving him hope and ambitions. He soon discovers what he will iive his life for. From there, in order for the both of them survive, one life has to be sacrificed....

Warning: Violence, Light Sexual Theme, Swearing
Disclaimer: The story and graphics are all by me, the pictures taken to make the graphics/banners were not mine to begin with, however. the edits and everything else are strickly by me. Please to not redistribute, re-edit, or take anything of mine. Thank You~

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